I have lived in a black-and-white world for a long time. My relationship with God was often fear-driven rather than love-driven. In fact, it was almost impossible for me to say, “I love you” to Father since I felt unworthy because of my shortcomings. As I have been learning to live loved, I have been blessed to be in communion with a small group of folks who are also seeking to know God better. We have been able to express where we are in our faith journey. We have laid aside the “you-are-wrongs” and instead, we have prayed for each other and been able to ask questions to clarify our own thinking. Not a one of us believes exactly the same way about Father and this has expanded our beliefs and our love for each other and for God. Do I sometimes worry that ‘error’ may be tolerated? Yep. But then I can entrust each of our friends to Jesus to correct errors by His Holy Spirit.
It is hard for me to disagree with a group of people who may all hold one perspective on a social issue. I have been known to just agree passively because it is easier. But I am learning that it is not only okay, but probably imperative to express my doubts and my reasons so that differing perspectives can be heard and explored.
For a long while, I did not accept my husband’s beliefs because they were different than mine. He felt judged and did not want to share his journey with me. As we have opened up about our journeys, we have been able to accept each other and pray for each other. We have focused on our certainties instead of our differences. This has grown our relationship significantly and our joy in being together and communicating openly.
I pray for continued relationships of openness and honesty and seeking. I pray to encourage those on the journey, esp. those whose doctrine may be different than mine. And I pray for the openness to love God and to love others and to continuously be open to His truth.