“Without that growing sense of futility in the old creation, none of us would ever look beyond what we can do on our own. Losing confidence in our human effort is a big step on this journey.”
One of the greatest gifts God has given me on this journey is the loss of confidence in my own abilities to do what only he can do. I have spent most of my life planning strategies, designing programs, and pushing people to fulfill them, thinking this was how the church is built. I never expected that in my learning to live loved and hungering for what’s real, I began to discover that my best-intentioned, human efforts always fell short of my hungers. As Paul writes in Philippians 3, I also discovered rather unintentionally not to put “any confidence in the flesh.”
I’m not talking here about the discouragement of feeling like a failure, but a rising hope that God’s ways were way better than mine. So instead of plotting and planning, I became more intentional about following those nudges to connect with others without agendas or plans. That’s where community became real for me.
Are you discovering this, too? How?