I don’t recall not being hungry for some thing more, having been raised in a toxic performance based all truth no grace faith community where God was always angry and could not be pleased. Really a tragic community, many people including myself spent the better part of our early to mid life in an internal rage that took a lot of energy to suppress.
Thankfully, God never left me and had his eye upon me all these days of anger, rebellion,and…well…whatever else.
In 1991 I left the institution and discovered Jesus, who was “there all the time”. For 4 years I walked with Him in a way that was more real than walking beside another human being. My brokenness, however, needed to be addressed, I was believing and living my life from a lie based system which I had developed through the formative woundings.
On April 22nd of this year of 2016 it will be 25 years of study, searching, desert, loneliness, failed experiments at community, and the like. In the last few years I discovered Church Outside the Walls which really connected with all I’d come to find meaningful in my heart of hearts.
As well, I have completed a 2 yr training in therapy by which people can receive truth through an encounter with Jesus in areas of their inner lives previously found impossible. I am now an accredited therapist and so blessed to be able to engage with people looking for “something more” while encouraging them in their walk to newer levels of wholeness in their personal journey with Jesus.
I would like to end by saying that nothing goes by the Father’s eye that has not been approved for us by Him, there is nothing that He cannot use for our good and His glory. What an amazing experience to walk with Him daily with a simple anticipation and expectation as to what He has in store for anyone walking in an affectionate and deep love relationship with Him.