P.S. - I asked Papa several times what I was holding onto that might be hindering me, and I think I finally found it (or should I say He showed me). It’s a little embarrassing and humbling, but I think I need to be honest and open about it. I want to keep things real, and hope that others can learn from my mistakes. So here is my explanation…
I have a hard time understanding why God loves people that reject His love (even when His love is clearly presented as delightfully kindhearted), and why does God love people that reject other believers that present a loving God… So sometimes I get a bit of a bad attitude and feel like we should just give up on all of those people who reject God’s love, and I begin to hope that God will push those people aside or maybe even wipe them out, so folks like us can do things in this world to promote love. I then think again and remember that God is love, and remember that we are to love others also… I then remember how I used to be the legalistic guy that didn’t really believe in the ideology of a loving God… yet Papa worked to bring me around to believe in His love, and He can still do that for others also. I have slowly been growing to be more of a loving person over the last few years, but this subject of people with harsh attitudes has kept coming into my mind and hindering me.
I recently began to feel dry and lifeless in my journey through life, and I asked God several times about what is hindering me. I kept asking several times over the last week or 2. I almost got a little frustrated that I didn’t get an answer within 1 day… However, I have been watching Waynes “Engage” video series where he says to keep asking God to show you things, because sometimes we don’t get answers quickly. So, I tried to be patient and keep asking Papa for help.
I finally realized some things when I went through an article I recently saw, which showed that we show love to God through loving other people. Also, if we hate people in this world, then maybe we don’t really love God as much as we think we do. Wow!!! That brought me up short, considering my bad attitude. However, I finally got an answer from Papa, and was really glad that I got an answer, but at the same time I was a little embarrassed at how unloving I had been. Here I was, the guy who was trying to promote God’s love, and yet at the same time I was the guy fighting against love by wishing God would wipe people out. I then asked God to give me some kind of supernatural power to love other people, and for Him to use that power to wipe out my bad attitude. I can now feel His love once again working in me, and I feel the old harsh attitudes melting away.