Oh gosh I hope this is as brief as I can place it into type but here goes and to be honest it is probably a cry out in my frustration and yes this quote is bang on what is occurring in and around me right now.
“Something is awakening in you that may bring more frustration than joy at the outset, but if you don’t give up and if you don’t settle for “the best you can find,” that hunger will work in you and eventually you will find her, too.”
It was a slight bit before the time Wayne visited the UK when I started noticing what I then called an “inkling” that something new was afoot. There was a new positiveness awakening in me that I was about to find something new and amazing. I was fortunate enough to be amongst those that meet Wayne in Esher London and happened to mention it to him at the end. I came away from that day hugely encouraged and even more sure that things where about to change.
Since then I doors have opened to new areas where I can have some interaction with others (before that I was a lone ranger). One in particular is a fellow at work came and told me, he and a few others, four families, had left their local church as they felt the pastor was placing them more and more in bondage and preaching an obligation type message which he felt opposed the grace message he felt people needed.
My immediate thoughts was, "this is it, this is His church he is building and I just bumped into it".
That was about a month ago, I went to a few meetings, they start 11am sharp in a home, sing one song, a message is preached, then it’s tea and coffee.
The gathering afterwards has been the moments when more building in relationships than anything else has occurred. However I was shocked when I learned that work my colleague, who is taking a leading role, mentioned to me they have decided on a name, a website and have registered it all as another church with a governing body locally. that seemed sudden?? Maybe that is what needs to be done but it is looking to me as though it is fast becoming another man made organisation and I feel I want to follow my “yuk metre” and run.
I need advice from others that I don’t have here, that are on a similar journey of “trying to find her”, so please feel free to let me know. I have not been to the last couple of Sunday meets however I am still close enough to try help should I feel the “nudge” which hasn’t come, yet??
Basically I feel as the quote says,“if you don’t give up and if you don’t settle for “the best you can find,” that hunger will work in you and eventually you will find her, too.” That is where I am today… somewhat unsure of this local venture and there has to be more, you think??
Sorry it isn’t brief… an excuse me for taking a chance and placing this here if it isn’t appropriate…
Ian in Colnbrook Berks UK.